Hey there bloggers, I know it's been a while since I've updated...
So, even though I am half asleep and drained from doing assignments - I thought it was about time! (please excuse the P&S bag in the background!))
Lets see, all in one night I've been considering a whole damn lot of things:
Should I cut my hair? When can I tidy my room?
I need to update my blog - A lot has happened in three months!
(Like starting Unitec, Getting a job at an INSURANCE Company and turning 21!)
Lets see...
Flicking through my diary that I do get to write in most days the first thing thats happened since Mike got chased by that cute little seal was...
Volunteering at the Helensville Library!
I enjoyed this very much (I know 'very much' is not the best way to put it, but hey - it's past 12!) Actually I turned out to be rather good with stacking shelves and putting everything in order... I loved serving the customers - when I wasn't "stacking the shelves" I'm surprised I was able to get much work done as most of the time I was stacking shelves I was on the look out for a few good books as well! Unfortunatly I don't volunteer there at the mo as with tec and work I don't have the time - however I'm planning in the christmas holidays to get some hours in...
I also found a few quotes for my obstacles pendant:
It is not the mountain
We conquer,
But ourselves.
-Sir Edmund Hillary
Or:
Life is a journey
what is a journey
without obstacles?
(I don't know where this one orriginally came from, but it just popped into my head)
I had a wonderfull 21st Birthday party. I throughly enjoyed myself and I even got a brilliant speach about my 'anger management issues' lol, it was Julies speech about how she loves to just piss me off when she is bored, and how she just loves to see my different stages of anger...
needless to say it was an excellent night!
RANDOM COMMENT:
One night while at Burger King, I witnessed a Fork Lift going through the drive through!
CUTTING MY HAIR!
Yup, that's right... I cut my hair - ALL ON MY OWN!
I was in the shower one night and desided after being thoroughly annoyed at my hair taking so damn long to wash - I grabbed mum's sewing scissors and cut my hair to my shouders! Yes, me - Toni who is so stressed about everything being just the perfect in every way - (especially when it comes to my hair) Cut my hair before I even thought about the consequences!
... It turned out pretty good though, even if I do say so my self!
MY 21st PARTY:
*sigh* Alas, I am no longer a child - I actually feel like an adult now, although I do still have immature tendances...
Turning 21 has seemed to have an interesting impact on me... I don't know what it is, I just seem to have changed a little... (mum has this theory that when you turn 21 your mind just clicks and you change anyway, but I think considering that the events of the past 6 months to a year have made a great impact on me, not only physically, but emotionally as well)
I spent my actual birthday getting myself pampered, my hair highlighted and straightened (I thought my hair was already dead straight, but I was proven wrong!) I also managed to get my eyebrows shaped and a nice manicure - it was a nice relaxing day!
For prezzies from mum and dad I got a few nice things (they paid for my 21st party, so I didn't get much - not complaining as it was the best prezzie!) a nice ring with pink as the stone, a set of glases with a butterfly charm stuck on them (I really like these glasses, but I was very ammused at how they were put togeather - "Oh look, it's missing something... lets glue this butterfly charm on!") and they also gave me (wait for it...) "Na na na na na na na na - Sheets of egyptian cotton..." (for those of you that don't know where is came from - Uptown girls, Jessie Spencer Sang it)
My 21st Party went off with a bang! - littery with all the $2 shop baloons popping before we had a chance to do anything with them (some even popped at we were inflating them!)
The night before Aj, Sarah and I spent the time make decoations for the hall, then it was all rush for the morning!
The DJ was an Ok MC (calling AJ Gingly - she had a coin belt on) though he didn't stick to the play list, have of the night of music was great! My key turned out to be an ordermental one that looks like the secret garden key.
Julz gave a really good speech, winning her the dunce hat of the evening (well her dancing contributed to it) And Dan came in at the funny man with his 'spastic dance' lol, I've got a great shot of him in mid-spastic-dance resembling a T-Rex. (though I won't put it in here as I have it on good authority that he wouldn't appriciate it)
Julies Speech:
(The moment that I heard "Hello Toni... I have a microphone" I, along with Mum and Dad Stopped in my tracks!)
"I have fun everytime I come up to your place, cause when ever I get Bored I have bets with myself to see how long it takes to piss you off, I can tell you all of Toni's anger management traits..."
"First there is the heavy breathing, you can actually see the steam come out of her ears and nose... Then there is the counting, One... Two... Three... What make it worth it is when she storms off to her room!"
"... And that is my life, but it's all about Toni today!"
Those are a few pieces out of the speech, but I couldn't write the WHOLE thing in! you'll just have to enjoy it as it comes.
All in all the party was good, I got some kool prezzies one of which had the beautiful quote:
Just living is not enough,
Said the butterfly
One must have
Freedom
Sunshine
And a little Flower
- Hans Christian Anderson
STARTING UNITEC:
Well, after not being to school for a few years, it was a bit of a challenge to got back (I know as much as it was for a few of my fellow students, but all in the same for me it was different this time round)
This time round I'm enjoying it a whole lot better then the time that I went to high school. I've made a few new friends, including Sarah and Monique (hey guys!) Part of the reason for me choosing to go back to school was to not only learn new things, but to meet new people. again there are still the little groups in the class that you could find in high school - but this time round I don't care what people think or what they do - it is my life and I can choose to let it affect me or not.
I have loved the assignments, I'm currently getting my typing speed up (this blog is helping and a great excuse for spending so much time on the net!) and I have found that in test I don't get as freaked out as I used to. if it makes me get worried, I will just go find something else in the test to do and come back to it. I love not being too stressed about it.
However the bum thing about it is, a few things have stood in my way of being able to keep up in class with everyone else. the first one was me dropping a log on my poor toe (the bruise is still there after two months!) that put me out of action for a week or so. And as I said in my last post I had my Op. (this I've had to stay off work and tec for two weeks, which I haven't really been able to get much study and catch up for a while, which is not good! I'll have to cram it in this weekend as I've got three assessments on monday, one right after the other!)
All in all, I love being a student, and I plan to go back next year (hopefully I pass this course!)
WORKING AT AN UNSURANCE COMPANY:
Wow, I never thought that I would, but here I am! I'm only an Admin support person, but I'm working in an insurance company. porb cause of legal reasons (and for me not really being bother in writing it all in here) I can't tell you much about work, just that it's an INSURANCE company! (Did I say that enough?) but what I will tell you is that I'm having fun, more than what I thought I would, the people I work with are great! (works not too hard) and the stories I hear! (again for legal reasons/laziness I can not put it in here!)
MY VIEW OVER THE PAST 6 MONTHS:
Ok, well in truth I started this updating before my operation. Within this past 6 months I have been through a fair bit. I have been made redundant from a job I loved (the architechs) Turned 21, made new friends and lost, or grew apart from a few old ones, and this operation (the second in the past 18 months)
Since I have been through all of this I have been forced to think for a little bit, especially since I had a lot of time in hospital to think when all I could do was lay there with drains coming out my neck.
I don't know exactly what it is that has changed my views, thoughts and everything on anything and everything, but a lot has happened (also things that I don't care to spell out in here) For these things that have had in interesting and life altering impact on my life I am thankful and greatful as I have changed for the better in my own opinion, I stand up more for myself, I am more honest to not only others but to myself, I am looking at each day in a little more positive outlook on things, and for the first time that I can honestly think of I have started to develope a feeling of being proud of myself.
These factors, although I still have a lot to learn and an even longer way to go, are contibuting to making my life more worthwhile. I have grown without me knowning when, or how - but I still have growing to do.
Out of the Darkness I come into the light
To see the wonders of the day
and the beauty of the night
Proud of my new found fate
I'm glad to have had the patience to wait
I gaze back at my travels I have done
and the journey that is still to come
as I sit here proud I smile
as these changes in me have all been worthwhile
- Toni Buswell age 21
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